Indecision.

I have been talking to a friend of mine about trying to "move in together" and create an actual site.  I think I'm scared.

I've always wanted a place where I could put my stuff for other people and share my opinions and thoughts.  However, sometimes I am very abrasive.  Sometimes when I don't like something... I call it a huge fucking piece of shit and pretty much spend 1000-words talking shit about how it could have been great, but some lazy fucking developer would rather cash-in on shit work instead of making less and providing a better experience.  This goes for apps, games... pretty much everything.  I am not sure if this is something that I can maintain.

HOWEVER, I do want to do stuff.  I want to go to GamesCom, I wanna visit QuakeCon, hell I want to go to DragonCon and have a good fucking time and read about all of the cool new shit that is happening in our world and being made better by and/or with technology.  There is more to life than my cell phone.  Laptops are making drastic changes to what they were.  Ultrabooks are on the rise, Netbooks are dead, tablets are taking over the world, the PC hardware race is a constant see-saw.  I love it.  I love ALL of it.  I don't know how to focus what I enjoy.

I want to make sure that I can do three things, but I'm not sure I can do them all well.  I love gaming.  I wanna talk about it.  From top to bottom and back again.  I love hardware.  I'm huge tech nerd and have a fucking raging hard-on for GHz.  The more the better.  Who needs 4TBs of storage?  Probably me.  Why? BECAUSE I WANT EVERYTHING!  I just love it.  I'm old school enough to remember single-digit MHz PCs that I had and hard drives that were less than 25 MBs.  Huge, loud MFM drives that were the size of 2 5.25 drives.  Shit, I remember 5.25 drive and not even the high density ones....  These are things I love.  I am great with mobile tech and I really enjoy it, but I don't want to give up on things I truly love and enjoy.  Can I do it?

I know that I want to and I know that my buddy wants to.  I could easily pull my brother on board and I've got another good friend who would love to contribute fingerwords to whatever I did.  I think this is something I am capable of, I just want to make sure it is something that I can commit myself to.