And all that could have been....

Sometimes I think deeply.  Most of the time I just drool on my desk at work while I am talked down to by old women who cannot figure out why the THIRTY-NINE HUNDRED cat pictures are taking so long to back up.  On the rare occasion that I put my brain to good use, I often wonder what kinds of things I could tell people.  What could I share?  Could I share it in a way that people were interested in?  Could I help even one person better understand something?  Could I aid in making a decision based on my feedback?  Hmmmmm.

I've always wanted to be in charge of something.  Not something huge, but something very small and down to earth.  I wanted to reach the masses with a small group of honest individuals that didn't mind letting people know exactly how they feel.  No selling out.  No sucking up.  Brutal.  Fucking Truth.  You see, things don't work that way anymore, so it is hard to do something like that.  The amount of money you have to generate to compete is absurd.  This is important because you are going to provide honest information that can be digested by a normal human-being, as opposed to sensationalized bullshit that fanboys are going to swallow like a huge load from their favorite so-and-so.

I won't lie, I've got my own biases.  I really like Thermaltake.  I think they make good shit at every level.  Their PSUs are top-notch, their fans (though it has been a while) are stellar, their cases are amazing, they have the best keyboard EVER.  Am I fanboy?  Not so much.  How often do you see me come here and ooze over something they've done or how much I desperately wish I had something from them?  Never.  My current fans are all CoolerMaster.  My current PSU is made by Antec.  These are solid brands and products that I researched, purchased and have been incredibly happy with.  I don't want to talk about the untimely death of my keyboard and how the last week has been agonizing.  The point is, I understand that being objective is important.

Recently someone asked if I would help contribute to something for them.  While I don't know if anything will happen, it reminded me how much I wished that I could have done something bigger.  I don't need to be a GameSpot or IGN.  I don't need to be a Gizmodo or Engadget.  Why can't I try to cater to people who are interested in technology and gaming, but not be fed tainted information and paid-for-advertisements masquerading as reviews?  Maybe he will get a website.  Maybe he will find stuff to fill it and make a pretty CSS to cover it in.  I don't know.  Maybe he will link to this blog.  Maybe he will generate revenue and be able to give me a few bucks to put a piece or two together.  We are both in the mobile technology field and both enjoy PC games, it could be a match made in heaven.  It could also be a huge failure.

Thankfully, I'm used to failure and I don't mind.

If I ever come into a large sum of money I will purchase a site.  I will build it will good people and truth will be the centerpiece.  Sure, a lot of it will be opinion, but you won't hear me tell you that a buggy piece of shit is a 9/10.  You won't see me endorse a weak piece of hardware, because I got something.  I may not make a shitload of money, but hopefully I'll earn the respect of the people I want to provide information to.  At the end of the day, that's all I really want.  Just a little respect.  It doesn't seem like I'll be getting that from the hateful cat lady running the 7 year old laptop with XP on it.